Everyone’s favorite precocious blogger, Tavi, is heading to Tokyo as we speak! She’s there to shoot for some Japanese fashion magazines but mostly to attend Comme des Garcons’ holiday party on November 27th! The 13-year-old is going to be seated with her idol, Rei Kawakubo!
Between trips to NYFW, LA, and Tokyo she seems to be missing a lot of school, don’t you think?
In my world, I’ve been down & out with a nearly month long sinus infection and stress at my “real” job. I love the kids and the hours and all but I hate that I’m quickly becoming more of a teacher than any kind of writer or stylist. I just don’t find any kind of joy in my life anymore and it is making me tired and slow.
My friends, who I haven’t seen in weeks, all have full lives with classes, jobs, and lots of social interaction and when I’m free (usually only Saturdays) they have plans with new friends, or are too tired from their weeks to make plans, or just want to be with their boyfriends. I live in the suburbs and can’t just drive in at a moment’s notice-not like taking the T down the street to meet up at a bar. If I want to hang out it takes planning and I hate that because I’m not a planner and my friends really aren’t either. I still talk to them on a regular basis but that isn’t the same.
I get invited to parties or events by publicists or other bloggers and I’m too tired or too shy to go. Usually too tired to go home after work, glam up, drive in and hang out with strangers on a week night. Plus, I feel like I’d be a disappointment. Less naturally stylish and pretty than expected. At least here I can hide behind a graphic and the computer.
But what kind of life is that?
I’ve thought seriously about applying for a post-grad program at London’s College of Fashion but where would I get the money? I can’t afford to take out any student loans (and I don’t believe any company would be stupid enough to give me more…) and I think I’d get scared and come home after a week. I’ve never been far away from my family for an extended amount of time and I don’t think my anxiety will allow it. My friends and family all say, Yeah at least apply! But they know that I won’t and even if I did that I wouldn’t go. I’m all talk.
I do know that if I don’t make a major change soon my soul is going to shrivel up and die. I’ll spend the rest of my life as a shell of a person, going through the motions and never having any real experiences.
Go buy Lady Gaga’s The Fame Monster right now!
I believe that telling the universe what you need will help bring it to you. So I’ve shared all of this and I’m telling the universe that I need a connection. To anything.